I’m a good would be mummy. I love children. They appear to like me too. I was utterly convinced I would have at least one child but so far, at 39, it’s just not happened for me. It could’ve and I blew it. I decided against a real baby in my tummy because circumstances were not right. You may feel angry to learn a grieving non mum turned down the chance to have a child because she was afraid and you my not understand.

I can’t control your opinions but I can explain things. I’m going to try here.